i dont understand why it is that i always have to do everything.  i mean everything and i can never quit, ever.  nd then i wonder why i get so stressed and get a migraine so bad that i cant see straight. its very annoying but its just the way i am.  any body want to explain my mind to me?

ok so noah does not remember ever saying that it was over.  so he is just saying that it never happened.  i talked to him today, finally after like 2 days.  its weird...im talking to him like nothing ever happened.  he doesnt ever remember saying its over. 

DRJazzy89:  just dont leave me with an its over anymore
Narwill88: well, that wont b a problem cuz i never did leave u with an its over
Narwill88:  i never even said that

i guess i just overreacted.  like usual....i dont know i dont get it.  but whatever...my mind is messed up and i no and everyone around me knows it.  well i g2g eat then watch Lost and Alias...cya later

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal/blog.

 its APRIL VACATION!!!     it doesnt feel like it though.  it feels like i am going to come back next week.  im stupid.  i went to physical therapy yesterday.  and then i went to work and since no one was in the office to do all of the running stuff i had to do it. so i ran up and down the steps about 30 million times and then i danced.  how smart am i?  now today i cant walk at all.  no stairs no bending, and my knees creak.  i hate when they do that cuz it feels so disgusting.  well i gotta go finish packing for maryland.  i am going to maryland for 4 days, driving down there tomorrow at 6 a.m. then i am flying back with my daddy on tuesday so i can study for my friggin massive college history AP exam.  its two week from tuesday.  i have to learn 36 chapters....im nuts.  well talk to you all when i get back ....bye

just got home from maryland.  went down their to see my grandparents and my aunts uncles and my monsters.  already have bruises from them and i saw them ONCE!  i love them though....for anyone who doesnt know my monsters are my adorable cousins....that was sarcasm.  they are cute though and i love them but they are pure monsters.  anyway i went to washington DC while i was down there...and walked like 4 miles in one day...and yes i know that isnt a lot but when i cant walk cuz of my screwed up knees it is a lot.  then the next day we went to baltimore aquarium...again we walked alot and again my knees hurt....i am very screwed up.  lol...i got sunburnt twice...i know a sunburn isnt good but ill be nice and tan afterwards and im gonna look good...lol...ok well i gotta go to bed cuz i gotta get up early to study for my AP test....FUN!!! see ya

Dayna

vacation is supposed to be a time when i see people...mainly noah.  well this vacation i cant see him cuz passover is around the corner and he has stuff to do at home.  this would have been the only time i wuld have been able to see him in like 5 weeks.  it sucks!!  i really miss him.  sometimes it makes me wonder if this long distance relationship thing is ok.  im not going to dump him because i dont get to see him, thats a stupid reason.  it just kinda makes me wonder...well jackie is here and we are gonna hang out so later gaters!!!

Dayna

Back to school and it sucks.  it just means that  my AP test is comign that much sooner.  i have so much to learn for that test plus all the other hw i have to do in my other classes and a project due for history.  i stress myself out too much.  at least there is no work this week, only dance, babysitting, physical therapy and USY.  and whats even worse is that the day we go back to midrasha im going to be at spring convention so i wont be able to see noah.  im really excited for spring convention but i really want to see noah.  i cant wait for spring though.  i need a break so badly...from all the stressing things in my life....which is pretty much everything.  well gotta go pick out invitiations, copy history crap, and go to physical therapy for an hour....fun...later

Dayna

today is the nine month anniversary of Noah and me.  omg it does not feel like nine months AT ALL!!! im so happy...but i havent talked to him in about a week...so i dotn even know if he remembers or anything....well just wanted to put that in....got a ton of stuff to do..later

 Narwill88:  ok, so, hillel said, 3 attributes made up the perfect person, by asking 3 basic questions,
1)If I am not for myself who will be for me.
2)If I am only for myself what am I?
3) If not now, when?
Narwill88:  ok, so u got, 1,3. do u have 2?
Narwill88:  i mean
Narwill88:  u got 2,3, do u have 1?
Narwill88:  do u do acts that only benifit yourself?
DRJazzy89:  i dont know
DRJazzy89: i dont think so...but i dont kow
DRJazzy89: know*
DRJazzy89: why are u asking?
Narwill88: because everyone needs some 'me' time 
Narwill88:  wheres urs?
DRJazzy89:  i dont actually think i ever have anytime for some
Narwill88: dont u see that as a problem?
DRJazzy89:  i guess so...but i like what im doing...right now im stressed cuz of this test...but dancing and working and USY i like it....
DRJazzy89: and im not the type of person that can just sit in front of the TV not doing anything
Narwill88: but that time is important
Narwill88:  if u have no stress free time, how do u de-stress?
DRJazzy89:  i agree...but i can do it for like 5 minutes and then i cant stand it anymore
DRJazzy89: i dance
DRJazzy89: i talk to you
DRJazzy89: i dunno...thats just the way i am and i dont thnk i have ever been different
DRJazzy89: u wanna know what my "me" time is?  its before i go to bed at like 11:30 when i read something that has nothing to do with hw
Narwill88: wow
DRJazzy89:  yea...thats bad isnt it?
Narwill88: muy

anybody know how to fix me?

Today was Friday the 13th.  Most people think that only bad things can happen on Firday the 13th, but i think your luck could go either way.  today my luck went good...for once.  i went to the doctor's this afternoon.  he said that i might have torn cartilage, but since he couldnt see it on the MRI, that he might need to scope it. like go into my knee with a mini camera.  but before he does that he wants me to go to another doctor, a sport's medicine doctor.  i have an appointment w/ him on tuesday.  im actually kind of hoping something is wrong just so they can fix it cuz it hurts soooo much.  its like a sharp shooting pain and its not fun.  and plus right now i cant dance and my dance recital is in a month and a half.  i cant quit so close to recital so i need to get better soon.  i do my excercises, i stay off my knee, i ice it..i do everything.  but i dont think it is going to get better.  and plus, the problem they think i have isnt fixable and will never go away. 

another reason why my friday the 13th was good was because i saw noah tonight.  it was a USY dinner tonight and i had to wait tables.  and i dont know how, but noah came too, to wait tables.  his friend Naomi got him to come.  and that doesnt make me jealous, which is good.  i got a little jealous tonight but it went away.  i trust him.  i have to cuz i dont see him all the time. but yea so he made my friday the 13th good too....considering i havent seen him for 6 weeks.  and i see him agian on sunday for hebrew school and midrasha.  ;-)  :-)...any way  i gotta get some sleep tonight.  later

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Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

http://www.quizdiva.net/swhoroscopes/cancer.jpg">> You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab). You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want. You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous. Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation. Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

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You Are 55% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

what is with people not listening to me?  my doctors dont listen to me, my friends dont listen to me...i just dont get it.  and half the time i dont even listen to my own instincts and that is a problem.  i dont like to listen to my self.  i also have pretty much no confidence in myself.  but that is a different story for a different time.  i just love the fact that no one bothers to listen to me and im right.  like my doctors dont think that anything is wrong with me but i know there is because what they are telling me that is wrong with my knees doesnt explain half of the stuff that is wrong with them.  the next thing to do to find out what is wrong is to get surgery, but the problem is that if i am wrong and that there is nothing wrong with me then my mom just wasted all that money to have me get surgery, and it wasnt even worth anything...if i get it i have to do it after dance recital and after i go to florida. 

that is another problem i have to tell sara that i am going to flordia with stacy.  and that would lead to the fact of why i didnt invite her and that would be because i cant stand to be around her for more than an hour.  i can barely stand to talk to her in spanish  class.  and then i need to tell her that she is a hipocritical, dependent, two-faced, judgmental bitch.  that felt really good to get that out.  lol...

yea im really stressed right now and today is my ten month anniversary with noah

i am going to hershey park this weekend. i know it is supposed to be fun, but i have too much work to do to have fun.  i have like 9 assignments in history to complete before friday, i have to do an english project, i have to do a massive history project, spanish project, and pull up my grade in Algebra.  i just cant do it all.  its just way too much.  and the problem is that i dont even have hebrew school (work) anymore to get all my stress out.  i usually vent to my friends there. at least i have a USY event tonight that ican go and have fun at.  i need a destressing night.  i am so pathetic with work that i am going to be doing work on my way down to hershey park.  isnt that sad? 

so right now im eating chocolate in computer class and im stressing and im PMSing.....so its jsut not good.  well g2g...bye

just got home from disney world.  im all nice and tan!! and i look awesome.  lol.  i have some nice tan lines.  i went to disney with stacy and briana's friend macayla.  it was a blast.  we spent one day with katie cuz she was down there in her house.  we had a great time.  we went to MGM studios with her and had lunch at our hotel.  it was supposed to be this very interactive restaurant.  we werent very interactive sunday afternoon.  we had dinner again there last ngiht.  now that was the best time of the entire trip.  one of the waiters made us go up to the front with all the other little kids and wanted us to ride around the restaurant on a wooden pony.  he wanted everyone to go one way.  well the four of us and two other other girls that were the same age of us.  we went the opposite way of the way the guy told us to go.  it was so funny.  then cuz we didnt follow what he was saying, he made the six of us take the ponies and go out to the main lobby (the restaurant is right on the side of the lobby, and you can see the lobby from the restaurant). yea so he made us go out to the main lobby with the ponies and we had to ride around the lobby on the ponies singing "You Are My Sunshine!".  We were screaming it at the top of our lungs...it wasnt very pretty.  when we left the restaurant, the four of us left skipping and singing "You Are My Sunshine". it was soooo funny.  we went back and saw hime later (the waiter) and we took a picture with him.  i highly doubt anyone will believe that story at all.  i'm not even that embarrassed cuz its not like any of the people there will ever see me again.  but i dont think im going to tell many people about that story.   well gotta go...i gotta babysit tomorrow and do more of my history outlining.   bye!! 

how do you hurt a friend at the same time your helping one?  if you tell a friend the truth then you could be betraying another friend, even if that friend didnt tell you the truth. and then if another friend told you, then you are betraying them too...it doesnt make sense.  by helping one friend, you could be hurting 2 others....so what do you do? 

if anyone has any suggestions...let me know

yes or no? too much or too little?  should i be paranoid?

i hate feeling this way.  it sucks.  why cant the human brain work in a way that you can block out what you dont want to think about? why wont this paranoia just GO AWAY? i hate this feeling.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME-E!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

If you couldnt tell, today is my birthday!!  It wasnt so great of a day i stayed home and did homework.  Tonight jay, mike and sue rodrigues came over for dinner.  That was fun.  We just ate and talked and laughed.  It was a blast.  Sue is like another mom to me.  I love her. And mike is hilarious, and jay...I dont know about jay yet.  Well yea so i dont feel any different what so ever know that i am 16!

And my party on saturday was the best thing ever.  I was so afraid that it wouldnt be anything fun.  Considering whenever my friends get together drama starts to happen.  But there was nooooo drama, and it was sooo relieving.  I didnt have to worry about where my friends were what was happening to them or whether they needed consoling.  I could just have a good time hanging out with my friends, which was great.  Josh came from Boston, and it was fun hanging out with him.  And Noah came and it was great being with him.  It was just a lot of fun.  alright well gotta go.....later

No one ever get a cat!  

Don't do it.  It could have harmful repercussions on you or people around you.  Believe me...

i wish i could just stay in this moment.  its a perfectly good moment.  there is absolutely nothing wrong.

and plus, i think im fixed....thanks

i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her. i am not her.

i am not her and i will never ever be her.

how many times do i have to say this until i actually believe it?

Two-faced

Obsessive

Lying

Dependent

Judgemental

Egotistical

Reality check

Bratty

Attention-seeking

Hypocrite

Desperate

Self-centered

first day of August.  meaning there is only about a month until school starts again.  how weird is that?  this summer has gone by way too fast.  the things i said that i wanted to find ut this summer.  or do this summer just seem impossible now.  and next year is going to go by even faster, and the summer after that and the year after that until i am away at college trying to figure out what the hell to do with the rest of my life.  well gotta go do MORE history....i never stop.  there has to be something wrong with me.  later

surgery next thursday.  im alright...i think.  i want it but im still scared about it.  noah is in california for 2 weeks, i got my schedule today, my wisdom teeth are coming in and hurt like hell....i cant think of anything else.  oh yea i signed up to work at mystic this school year.  i dont think i am going back to dance....

online dayna translation:

hello = something is wrong w/ me

hi = im not to happy

buhbye = i am annoyed w/ you

disappear away message = something has made me upset enough that i want to leave

hope it helps

soooo tired.  i had to work at mystic today. my knee is killing me and it is still wicked swollen. 

so im still stressed and this is what i need to do.  i need to get away.  i need to leave. and i need to do something that isnt me...

Sept. 16, 2005 Cancer Horoscope

 An inner battle is waging in your head. Talk it out before you explode! It doesn't have to turn into a fight. Have you been turning a situation over and over, trying to look at it from this way and that? This is only gonna drive you crazy, Cancer. Open up to a trusted person and pour out your heart. It will set you free.

How true is that?

dont you wish that you could find one moment, one event that you wish you could be in forever?  or at least go to whenever you need it?  i think i have found my one moment.  anytime i feel horrible im just going to think about that place, that moment.  the one moment that i felt totally content, comfortable, and happy.  i felt totally comfortable with myself, with my body, with where i was and who i was with.  it felt so good to be like that.  not having to worry about anything or anyone.  no drama.  just sitting there, feeling safe. 

one moment, just one perfect moment

awesome field trip.  we went to the beach and we caught spider crabs, green crabs,  lady crabs, sea stars, fish, snails, hermit crabs.  it was fun.  this kinda makes me want to go back to marine biology, but i dont know.  im toying between two choices right now. deciding what i want to do.  well ill decide sometime. 

yea so i love the fact that for one day i have to help run the hebrew school and im taking my job way too seriously.  i can never not be a perfectionist, can i?  from school to working.  i like perfection.  how does being a perfectionist shape my choices or decisions?  (still kind of unclear on the difference so i should probably ask michael again)  i always degrade anything i do because i think it isnt perfect, but then what is perfect?  nothing is perfect.  no one is perfect.  so why do i obsess soo much?  will i ever stop?  i can answer that question:  NOPE.  i will never stop being a perfectionist.  its just the way i am.  i just want to know if that makes me decide things a certain way because i just want everything to be perfect.  i dont know...

I hate this feeling.  the one where i feel like i dont mean anything to anyone.  the one where i feel like i am second to everyone.  why cant i be first on someone's list?  this feeling never goes away.   maybe im self-entered...give me a reason not to be

What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)
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Your Results:
Eden
You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable.

i am the co-chair for the providence hosted USY convention!!!  im excited.  the prov board picked me cuz they thought i would do a good job.  i dont disagree with them i am just surprised they picked me.  lol.  but im happy and sophie is my co-chair.  so we get to run the show.  and as miriam puts it, the weekend of the convention, it is my baby.  lol...gotta go..later

you know whats sad? the fact that i am doing less stuff this year than i was last year, yet i am more stressed...how is that possible?  i just make everything stressful.  and this whole emotional thing that i am putting myself through right now isnt helping at all.  i just make things so much worse then they actually are.  but we already knew that.  not only do i have school, but i have work, planning this convention, and this thing that i dont want to deal with.  but i always get through.  always make it through stress.  so its just a matter of time. 

two of my best friends have a problem at the moment.  and they are both scaring me.  and i only know one of their problems.  i wish i knew how to help. im going to do the best i can, i just wish she would tell me what it is.  someone that i have known longer than anyone in the world, and she wont talk to me...but yet she talks to her other friends...i just want her to tell me 

i dont really know whats going on anymore.  everyone is in the "i hate people" and "life sucks" stage.  and so am i.  i dont really feel that there is anything that matter anymore.  right now i dont believe in school, and everything is just so screwed up.  right now i definetly need a USY event.  they always make me feel better.   i just dont really know what to do.  and i just dont understand anything anymore.  i just need to deal with stuff, but im not exactly sure how anymore.  usually i have dance as my outlet, but i dont have that anymore.  i need to find something and quick before something really bad happens...

I had this guy...

1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hott kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you're the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into eachother's eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you're not with your guy he's all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and everytime you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say 'hi' and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you're sad, even if you're quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randonmly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn't mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he's washing your worries/troubles away.
35. A guy who tells you you make his day better, just for being you


If your a Girl and you want this or think its sweet post this with the title "Every Girls Dream"
If your a Guy and you would do this or think its sweet post this with "I'm Every Girls Dream"

..another one..

Amazingly True.....

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

so turkey dance is in 20 days!!! im really excited.  i actually get to see ben and ben and josh who i havent seen since boat cruise.  ben and i will do our normal thing and sit and talk for like an hour by ourselves.  turkey dance is definetly my favorite dance.  im doing well on planning the convention.  Its looking pretty good.  Sophie and i will do an awesome job at this convention.  i also signed up to do the chapter of the year binder.  im just digging myself into a bigger and bigger stress hole.  but ill be fine..i always am

school is still wicked stressful.  there is soooo much fricken work to do.  the teachers pretty much just give you busy work and arent teaching anything.  i just want one of my teachers to teach me something.  i do learn soemthing in physics..and i have a 102 average in that class.  i like bio and spanish, but i dont like precalc.  and im not learning anything in history or english.  and history is AP.  why dont we learn stuff? 

im also researching colleges.  thats a scary thought.  i cant even think that im going to be in college in two years.  its just weird.  to htin kthat this time next year im going to have decided where i want to go, and be filling out college applications....i cant even think that. 

and im also dealing with this whole eitan thing.  i dont kwno what to do.  i said yes to go to the movies w/ him, but i dont like him like he likes me.  he pretty much loves me(or so he said) and i dont like him as any more than a friend.  and plus, i am honestly not ready to get into a relationship right now.  not now not after what happened.  i dont want a boyfriend fora little while.  i want to be able to find myself again, although i never really lost myself when i went out with noah.  but i need to make sure i can take care of myself w/out a guy with me.  cuz right now im not doing so well.  and thats not good.  i have made myself be strong and be able to stand on my own without a boyfriend.  but i guess i did rely on him, as well i should for going out for over a year, but its even harded when we broke up.  i dont know, i just need to dea lwith stuff.  and i need to know what i want and what im thinking and not be so confused.  and i should decide before saturday when i am going to the movies.  i am a firm believer oftelling someone the truth, so i should really tell him how i feel.  but i dont know how...i dont want to hurt him.  i just dont know how to tell him.  anyway i say it im going to hurt him.  and i know that.  and thats what i dont want to do it. 

so i went to the movies with eitan.  it was horrible.  i actually expected to have some fun.  i didnt at all.  i always had fun when i talked w/ him at midrasha. but i didnt have any fun.  he barely talked to me, and i know it was a movie but we were there a half an hour before the movie started and we walked around afterward.  i dont know what it was.  he might have been nervous, but i dont think so.  i dont know.  it was just really weird and awkward.  and the worse part of the night was that i finally realized that noah and i were broken up.  we were at the movies, and i was thinking things like "i usually come here with noah", "noah would have his arm around me"...stuff liek that.  i think it was also the fact that i was out with eitan.  the one person that liked me so much and it ticked noah off and the one person that noah wanted to kill everytime he came near me.  i think i also kind of felt like i was betraying him or something.  i dont know.  i just know that when i came home i just felt like crying and i actually did cry.  i just running through my head all the things that naoh and i did at the mall...where he asked me out, what theaters we went to, where we walked, where we sat.  its going to take longer than i thought to get over this.  its going to actually take time.  and i know that by going out with someone for a year it is going to be hard to just get over it just like that.  but im strong ill get over it i know i will....its just going to take time.  and in that time i need to find a way to not think about it cuz its just giving me a migraine.  well i have to go some of the massive amounts of work i have to do...later

what the hell am i doing? should i really be doing this?  how far is too far? is this me?  right now i dont honestly see anything wrong with it, but if it goes farther i might.  i dont know.  i deserve this right now.  i deserve to have a little bit of a good time. 

turkey dance was last night.  it was fun.  not as fun as previous years but it was good.  i kinda killed my knee...agian.  i danced with Ben and Ben and i tried to make Gabe dance with me.  that was fun.  lol.  and whitey can jump over ginsburg with only him ducking his head.  that was so scary too watch.  the dance was fun...but it was also kinda weird.  this is a reaction to one of my stories:

Narwill88:  gabe dropped u?
Narwill88:  why was he holding u up?
Narwill88:  u wouldnt let me pick u up, but he can put u on his shoulders?

lol.  ill put the stories in later.  i have a couple of them.  i have to figure some stuff out.  im not exactly sure what.  i just have to figure out my feelings.  i hate that saying i really do but in this situation its true.  whatever....im going ot go to bed because im going to maine bright and early in the morning.  bye!

ok so its 10 days before convention!!! im so excited. i have soooo much to do. put it this way. i left my house at 7 this morning and did not get home until 8:30 at night. its amazing and whats bad about it is that is kinda normal for me. lol. anyway so i am soooo excited for convention!!!! and guess what? i think i might have actually figured something out which is quite surprising for me. i need to write it down though. and if i write it down i think i will figure some more stuff out. im really tired right now and im running on fumes and i have a migraine and im like hyper how weird is that? well gotta go later

ok so im an idiot.  i was coming out of sara's house and my dad is calling to me that the driveway is slippery.  so what do i do?  i slip.  and i fell....at least i didnt land on my knee...but i landed on my wrist...and not my bad wrist.  i landed on my left, the one that doesnt hurt...so guess what my left wrist now hurts.  i thought i was going to go underneith the car.  but i didnt and now my wrist hurts and its hard to type.  but anyway.  so i have actually figured something out.  i do that from time to time i just space out in class and i come to a revalation.  which is really good for me.  and i was talkign to sara tonight and i figured out my topic for my english essay.  yes i know its a random time to think of things but i did and for some reason those random thoughts are the best. 

lets see...what else....ben is coming with me to winter ball!!!!!! im sooooo happy!!!!!! and im wicked excited.  i cant waait.  i have to buy my tickets on monday though cuz i havent bought them yet.  yea so i kinda need to talk to someone but im not exactly sure who to talk to because no matter what, anyone i talk to will be biased and wont really understand everything.  which could be a problem if i need help.  but i can figure it out myself....i usually do that anyway.  its usually easier if i figure it out myself.  if i get help it just takes longer because they confuse me even more.  well i cant really type anymore because my wrist hurts too much.  so goodbye and goodnight!!!

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i thought this was kinda funny...

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i hate these damn chain letters